RIP Jordan Earl Esquire III 6:13pm
April 27, 2003-September 2, 2003.


that is so hard to say but it's true. i changed his water and then when i get back from classhes upside down swimming. he was breathing and wiggling. so i call my dad. then i started crying. it's a goldfish and they can't give you teh affection like a dog but jordan was mine. he outlived his friends from the carnival. he lived through a stressful car ride back to oxnard.

for a while it was just me and jordan. he watched movies with me, and follow my finger. he told me when he was hungry. he was happpy almost all of the time. he was happiest when i gave him a bigger home and at feeding time. if i sat and watched him he would swim right in front of me. i miss him. he was a great goldfish.i don't know if any goldfish can love up to jordan.

i was not ready for him to go. i blam it all on myself because i changed his water. i was supposed to change the filter on the britta but i didn't. it was all my fault.

i haven't flushed hom down yet. i want to give him a proper burial, but i'm not in oxnard but long beach is his real home. i miss him so much. it's so lonely in my room and with jordan it seemed as if i wasn't. evertytime i look at his bowl empty it make me cry. i so used to him swimming around and making splashes. i had a plan for me and jordan to go on pet star and meet mario lopez. jordan was going to jump through a hoop and into another bowl. but now we can't. when i turn on winapm the song heaven by moonpools and caterpillars played.

i'm going to go now and flush him down the toilet because jordan belongs in the water. i loved him so much.

i hurt.

my heart almost dropped i saw jordan staring at me through the bowl and it looked like he stopped breathing. i'm still very shaken. so i poked him with an insharpened pencil. he's swimming now.

school starts tomorrow.

i moved in today.

watched about 7 hours of saved by the bell straight.

good times indeed.

school starts in a week. it's kinda sad. i like it at home. it's a stress free environment. but in a way i'm kinda excited to go.

i got a new friend. it's a betta fish i named him rocky rose the IX. he's always pissed at jordan earl but i guess that's his nature.

this summer kinda wasn't good heapth wise. in the beginning i had some type of food poisoning or stomach bug and a random act of strep throat.

Strep throat is more common during the colder months when people are inside together for longer periods of time and infections can be passed from person to person more easily.

The more cases of strep throat in the community, the more chances a person has of being exposed to a strep infection. This increases the chances that a sore throat is caused by strep infection
as told by webmd.com

funny b/c i don't know anyone who had strep and i was basicaly inside all week. oh well.

i want to get these bed sheets at target. they are jersey knit and they fell super nice. jersey knit is basically the 100% cotton that goes into making your tshirts therefore they are super comfy. i found my sisters betta fish thing so i guess ill be getting a betta fish soon.
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i slept so much today. not so good times. i have nothing really happening so i guess ill end it at that.

so i didnt do too well on that math test but i still have a good grade in the class. whatever. i missed somthing like 26. thats about half. so i was bummed afterwards then i had tge drive to do better in the next test. i want to go and swim and stuff soon like maybe thursday after another test. i skate around and stuff work on style and stuff.blah blah i turned a tshirt into pj pants. its amazingly comfy i love them. i think i need a haircut but i dont really want to pay for one so i guess ill see how my hair looks all grown out. if i dont feel it then ill cut it myself. yes i want to learn to cut my own hair. but knowing me ill probably be a pussy and have someone else do it. i might save up for a new board or something. i have money from babysitting and nowhere to invest. so im thinking about opening up a savings account.
my neck has been killing me.

so you know how super happy i was when i got napoleon? well i think he might be dying. im super bummed. on top of that i didnt do too well on a math test. so im very unhappy. jordan is doing well. i have to go and find the proper burial place. the placce will most likely be in the front yard. the dog and the duck wont get to it.

class was pretty amusing today. im so glad whitney is in my class. it was amusing b/c the people ask a lot of questions. the bus ride was fun. i sat next to someone i knew and to top that the bus driver was super rad. apparenty he used to be a school bus driver. he was called the "scientist." hes super social and would broadcast his conversations over the bus pa system. also during the stops he would make funny comments about the stops. i was laughing.
this year i decided to not go to the con this year in san diego. i dont know why but im not going. oh well

<3 my sister is coming home tomorrow

whats been happening. warped was alright. good times with friends for sure. i got a crab on sunday and then he died. R.I.P charlton duke august. hello napoleon augustus cousteau. hes cool. i got new gravel for the floor of the tank. it looks super rad. jordan is stil alive and swimming. school is alright.

math suck too many numbers it pisses me off. grr...im not going to class tomorrow or i am but im leaving early to go warped. good times. i wanted to share these good times with my "twin" but he cant go. super bummed.

today i babaysat. thats pretty much my income. i get a good $20 for the day i babysit. some days i get more depeding on the hours. anyways it was easy i watched the power rangers. good stuff...not really.

wha? this is new. eizelle confused. anyways i guess thats a sign of me not writing in this thing forever. at the current moment im watching the sound of music. its a great movie. my sister has the record im very jealous. the week has been great. yesterday i went to the pool with charice. i knew like half the lifeguards. today i went to the beach with charice and linda. good times skipping rocks and such. im kinda lightly toasted especially my face.
i got some new cds and a new dvd. dogtown and z boys is awesome. i dont know why i didnt get it a long time ago i guess b/c of the lack of funds. meh.

yes i want this. it's the same exact size as the one i have now and i love that set up with the exception of the wheels. i would get better wheels. there is also a robert august one that is sweet.

i feel like shit. i think i have the stomach flu and its not cool at all. i feel like i want to vomit i might have a fever and i do have a bad sinus. yeah not feeling 100% more like 45%.

i got my four fillings in today and i think i have two more to go. yeah thats what i get for having a sweet tooth. tomorrow is graduation and i dont know if im going to go. but jesse is having a party so i'll go to that.
dude police academy 4 is on and its in spanish. excellent!
anyways im currently writing a song with the cool keyboard we won from vegas. then my brother will play guitar and i have mario paint and you can make cool music with that too. im going to record it with this fisher price tape recorder that my sisters played with when they were kids. oh yeah the song is for my answering machine.

my teeth feel nice and clean. umm...i registered for class and got lost in vc. that was pretty funny. todday i woke up early again to see the dentist. its was cool i have to get a shit load of fillings though. meh. then i walked with my dog and my mom. i looks like it might clear up hopefully.

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This chick's rockin' your bro on the dance floor...
But she's towing an anchor
A Junior investment banker
Who's talking bout herself and not much more...
Ohhh...
So buy her a beer
That's the reason you're here
Mighty Wingman
You're taking one
For the team
So your buddy can live the dream...
Wingmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan...

that commerical is fucking hilarious.

the only real news is that jordan was trying to commit suicide today. i was so upset. i guess i underfeed hin so i guess from now on ill be giving him more to eat.

notyhing realy special is going on. i have to register next week at VC. good times. school again but hey its getting things done. on sunday i babysit from 10am to 7pm. all day thing. that's going to be insane.

i skated around today thats pretty much it. i also babysat. next sunday i have a big babysitting day. 10am to 7pm. oh man thats all day! oh well what ever pays the bills. i moved jordan's home to a bigger bowl and i think he likes it. he hangs out around the bottom but then he swims around. good times. i dont know but i pretty bored.

so what have i been up too. well a big fat nothing. home is home. i feel comfortable eating three meals a day plus snacks. not paying for things like chapstick and getting to watch all the tv i can is great. not really b/c i need to feel productive. anyways thats about it mabybe going to charity basketball game tomorrow. well see.

so i got back from vegas and i got some pictures. pretty cool i guess.

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and i added some pictures from long beach and of jordan.
im super surised that jordan survived the trip from long beach to oxnard. the water was tossed all over the place. he seems to be cool.

ill type up my vegas adventures tomorrow or whatever

jordan is the awesomest!

it was so funny. yesterday i was watching blue crush. i look over at jordan and it looked like he was watching too. it was so funny. when the movie ended he started swimming. i was like aww jordan likes the blue crush.
im too attached to him. hes just a goldfish too and its not the fancy kind. i dont know how hes going to like the traveling tomorrow. well see.
long beach is a cool place. the beginning of the semester was kinda scary but i got used to it. i like it here.

items eizelle wants to buy by the end of summer:
a scarf for the harsh summer.
new pair of vans preferably in blue and green or the kvel knievel inspired shoes if they are still available.
new two piece b/c the one i have is haggard.
new wheels for my longboard.
a skate tool b/c i said i was always going to buy one and never did.
a digital camera b/c i dont want to hog my brothers.
a cheap las vegas visor and tshirt.

hopefully babysitting will cover some of the cost.