possessions

getting settled in.

getting where i need to be

i need french macaroons and apparently they do not exist in long beach.  i guess i need to learn how to make them then.

pieces

i finally own a piece of dear creatures.  yay!

waking up in a new year

it's been a while i guess. 

History Lesson

Moving. Blah. I'm pretty excited to be back
in Long Beach. The only bummer is no dogs. I was really hoping and mentally ready to have a little friend back in my life. But alas it wasn't written in the stars...yet. My story is to be continued.

Moostache

I entered a contest on Kidviskous's Facebook page and I won!

Having a full time job and all I think the mustache makes me look professional and more refined. 

 

It came in a cute box!

 

Thank you Kidviskous! 

 

boys don't make passes on girls who wear glasses

Is that a true statement? This is my tough guy face.

my past is haunting me

If you are new to this blog and didn't go to high school with me you didn't read my old blog.  It was called open the door and I wrote in it my senior year in high school up to my first semester in college.  Then I moved to this blog. I read some entries today and man I hated living in Oxnard and I loved skateboards and the boys that rode them.  I kinda bummed because I had like three in high school and I deleted them all. This one survived and now you can enjoy my humble beginnings as a blogger.

Open the Door

Enjoy!

weekends

weekends have been nonstop since moving back here, but i'm glad i have them off. here are a few pictures from last week.  i was reunited with my bestest, un-knee-saw and she celebrated her 26 years of life. 

Inventory

old friends

I've had these shoes since my senior year in high school.

oh yes you will be mine

So pretty.  Damn you Sophia Coppola and Louis Vuitton!!  I can see myself holding this.  sigh. 


(as seen on habitually chic)

The Snozzberries Taste Like Snozzberries

Etsy Headquarters = dreamy.

(As seen on Apartment Therapy )

Located in NYC, personal chef and furniture and art were purchased on Etsy.  Stay creative friends!

case files

Living in Lake Forest can really change your outlook on life.  Life here is simple.  Beautiful homes and strip malls.  Once an ounce of culture is taken away, all you want it is to is get it back. 

This weekend was the Foothill Ranch neighborhood garage sale.  Usually, I get pretty excited about these things.  But Lake Forest is a pretty young city, established in 1994, I don't think there is much "accumulated things of interest."  Things of interest are in quotes, because it is all relative.  The things I find interesting are old things mainly from the 50's, 60's, and 70's and it's usually dishware or accessories. So with that being said, the garage sale was a bust but it doesn't mean I didn't make out like a bandit. One house's yard looked like a 99 cent only store.  I over heard that the owner knows how to work the coupon system and buys things at close to nothing and then she resells them.  I found my brand of tampons for nearly half the price Target or Rite Aid sells them for.  Naturally I buy two.  The next house I purchased items from was an older couple. They had the most interesting stuff.  I bought 5 good condition records with the most amazing covers for $1.  The last house, I guess you can file this under "ask you you shall receive."  I crochet beanies and I planned on buying some cute colors.  I found a comforter bag full of yarn from the 70's.  I paid $3!  There was also a sweet Kodak 35mm camera that belongs to the sellers dad.  She was asking $5.  I didn't end up buying it.  I usually regret these things but I have lots of cameras and I can hold out for one that truly sings to me. 

All the other houses were just "blah."  Nothing special.  People cleaning out their old stuff to make room for their new Pottery Barn vase.  I guess you can say, judging by the amount of things I bought, that it wasn't all that bad.  I guess so. I really like the records, I needed tampons and I wanted new colors of yarn.  But I part of me still feels empty.  People laid out their possessions, offering them for all to see and buy and quite honestly it made me sad. No culture. Strip mall art prints top 40 cds.  I truly live among the little boxes on the hillside.

too old

you're too old when you sit VIP at a hardcore show.

the end.

chose your own adventure

i choose b!

bigger and better things in the future! On to the the next one I suppose!

In other adventures in suburb living, while exploring the lake forest bar scene we stumble upon the Iron Mule.  You can smoke inside, they have digital shuffleboard and three pool tables.  The PBRs are $3 pint (ROBBERY) and YOU CAN SMOKE INSIDE!! what???? So then I look up the laws in California regarding smoking and law states that you can be exempt from the law if you have less than 5 employees.  BOOM.  Here I was ready to blow the whistle on this law breaking facility, and I find the loophole.  Bummer City fo sho!  I mean the bar was promising.  Iron Maiden writing on the door, it was next to an El Pollo Loco.  It has a lot going for it, top 40 music blaring from the digital jukebox and digital shuffleboard.

say it again

I FUCKING LOVE Dear Creatures! 

from fall 2010.

1. I have those shoes
2. I have the suitcase/ho bag on the very left.  
3. need a sailor hat?
4. oh yeah, i can see myself in the entire fall collection!! men's line included!

second favorite look(s)

want want want!


see for yourself!  Dear Creatures


all I need now is for this heat to go away.

questions

I have a lot of questions for my new city.  I'll consult the Lake Forest FAQ!

Does the City offer a senior meals program?
Yes, the senior box lunch program is offered on Mondays, Tuesdays, and Wednesdays at 11:30 PM. Suggested donation for the box lunch program is $4, please call 461-3579 to reserve a box lunch. A hot lunch is offered to seniors for free on Thursdays at 11:30 PM. For more information please call 461-3450

lunch is one me on Thursday after 11:30pm! wait, that's not lunch time?!

Who can answer my questions about drugs and gangs?You may contact (949) 461-3545 to ask questions related to drug use and gang involvement. You may also anonymously report gang activity by calling 1-800-NO-GANGS (1-800-664-2647).  

phone number entered in phone

Is sleeping in a garage permitted?  No. Sleeping in a garage is not permitted by the Lake Forest Municipal Code, nor are any obstructions allowed within a garage that would preclude the parking of vehicles.   Note to self: report neighbors that had reclining chairs in garage. Can I keep my portable basketball hoop on the sidewalk or street?No. Privately owned sporting equipment such as basketball hoop structures, hockey nets, and skateboard ramps are not allowed in the public right-of-way. The public right-of-way includes the street, parkway, driveway apron, and sidewalk. Lake Forest = anti fun! Can I arrange for a bounce house in a Lake Forest park? Bounce houses are not allowed in City parks. Bounce houses are allowed on private properties without a permit.    I don't want to live in a city that doesn't allow jolly jumpers in public parks. That is just criminal! I guess they are technically houses an need permits to be built and what not.  This is after all a master planned city, a city planned against fun!

 

made for walking

should have bought them.  they made me taller and my calves are banging! 

i went to san fransisco

my sister took the pictures.

i plan on sleeping in

when i pulled up to the shell station on holgate and 28th. with tears in my eyes, i basically told the guy who pumped my gas my life story and why i was so sad.  he genuinely told me, "good luck in california."


8/12 the day i leave my best friend and my godkitty in portland. it's hard to imagine a life with out anissa.  she's my sister. like my mom says, "you can't keep the twins apart." twins that were born 5 months apart and met in university 100. 

i can't say it's been easy. there will be parts of the day when i'll be reminded of something that we said or did.  it will get easier right? i keep on telling myself that it will.  i'm having a hard enough time writing this and it's been 4 days and counting and the disney channel isn't fun to watch alone. 

what does the future hold for me? have i really made the right decision?  will i be ready to live in the suburbs of orange county? questions, so many questions!  i have a list of wants and needs as all uncertain times do.  one of the needs is a job. i don't really know my status, it's been really unclear and i'm hoping that i can work again.  for the same company or something else, i don't know.  a part of me just wants to start something new but i do like the comfort of having a secure job with benefits.

add all these thoughts on top of a 19 hour drive across oregon and california alone with a car full of stuff that probably won't fit in my new house.  it's become draining and this is where i am now.  in oxnard, missing my boyfriend and my best friend and a cat.

eventually one day i will sleep in but till that day I will stick to waking up early.  It been a rough couple of days. i've been restless, sleepless and very uneasy.  uncomfortable in my skin. i had everything and i feel like i have nothing.

 don't worry about me, this too shall pass.

bummer city!

i hate being a grown up.  

i've made my bed, now lie in it

this is how i live for now.  a mattress that deflates while i sleep and clothing strewn on the floor.

girl needs ans alarm clock, eye glass cleaner, and clothing.

i hate moving. 

i'll show you mine if you show me yours

per the request of ms. chrissstttiiine here are my bento boxes.

pretty little bento boxes all in a row.

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the hamburger bento i got at urban outfitters for $1! it's pretty awesome! the one on the right was a gift from the bf.  it's pretty fancy! it has a rice container, chopsticks, and a little bag that holds it all!

this bento was my very first.  it says, "it is so wonderful to be able to maintain your dreams." that's the shit greeting cards are made of.

these are all my accessories.  the heart and star mold hard boiled eggs!

Treeson

I'm in love with the stories of Treeson by Hong Kong illustrator, Bubi Au Yeung. So cute:

Treeson picked up the broken hearts carefully and put them in his red cart.

於是他小心翼翼的拾起受傷的心，並放在紅車仔上。

find the whole story here here

I discovered these stories while thumbing through the book at Grasshut in Portland. I saw they had a blindbox series so naturally I bought one. I got PinB. I did my research and I found out that this character was created on April 6th,my birthday, is a sewer and a cook. So i can only think of one thing,WE WERE MEANT TO BE!

see for yourself

Through some kind of magic or fate, I got the character that I most relate to.

It's July Already

Where has the time gone? I don't know.