look at the summer day the sun is rising once again...


awww...i just saw the series finale of sabrina the teenage witch. it was sweet. she was going to marry aaron but hes soul star didnt fit with hers and she wasnt feeling it so she didnt marry him. and then harvey was outside and he had his soul star and it fit with sabrinas and they rode off together. it was sweet.
my day was cool. i went to the radio station and uploaded my assigned cds. some were cool. like i had the new cave in, and the new vaux cd. i so wanted a copy. the music libraby is very extensive very cool. it was funny b/c right outside the station was so gaming tour like you get to play all the new games and stuff. oh man the crowd was hilarious b/c its the people i see in the arcade. i heard a funny story too. during club week the anime club had a ddr set up and karaoke and they were all gung ho about it too. the was she told the stroy was funny i guess. anyways i got to know the station people more and they are all awesome. ray calls me E.I thats funny b/c i think one other person called me that. so i cant wait to start.
in my anthro class some guy was wearing a trogdor shirt. i was like "thats an awesome shirt!"
fuck im getting sick....

lets keep the moon awake

im pissed at math but whats new? anyways my paper is postponed to monday b.c professor lawler isnt going be there on friday. that put the biggest smile on my face. not only that, but literally half of the class showed up so half of the class is going to show up and nobody will be there. hahahaha. its an 8am class. so its going to be hilarious. no stress till sunday. so friday i think im going down to the station. like at 10ish. tomorrow i get to see the station music library and upload 10 cds. fun times. my sister is going into radio up in norcal.
i hate ants. they are infesting the kitchen. i cleaned it today but they still came back. little fuckers. i didnt eat big today. i had a fish buritto for lunch which was at 2pm so come dinner i was not hungry. i just had some potatoes. i wanted another grande veggie buritto. i dont feel to good today but i can live with it.
math was hilarious. not only is my professon crazy, there was scene in class today that was something from jenny jones. appaerntly she felt that she deserved two points and that the TAs cheated her of it. she got a 29/100 on the test but this is a credit/no credit class and two points could mean a lot. i dont know was funny b.c it was really nothing and the TAs were willing to give her the points but no she made a scene. it was great.

"just like a dream you crept into my head"

HAPPY EARTH DAY!

dammit i hate writing essays all i have is removal of the Native Americans was necessary for the expansion of the United States
thats my thesis. so now i have to some up with other stuff to write. now thats the part i dont like. err. have to do this.
i love my landlady more and more everyday. today the bathroom was painted. i thought the paint was dry and so i take a shower and it starts to crack and peel and stuff. so i tell her expecting that i would have to repaint the bathroom. she tells me not to worry. and that its ok. geeze if this was my mom, she would be so pissed at me and make me repaint the shower but no she was like dont worry. she also told me that she was going to invite us to go to vegas. it was a two night trip for only $20. i probably would go if it was saturday but i have school and such. she is awesome. thats all i have to say.
im not a big fan of tuesday b.c i dont really talk to anyone. it was a pretty lonely day. oh yeah no battle of the bands today i think.
i had another alias dream thats number two. i guess b/c it wasnt on sunday.

I scored a 43% on the "HoW FiliPiNo ArE yOU?" Quizie! What about you?

damn i suck. what then hell im more filipino than rocks in the mother land. geeze.

"you're a bad-hearted boy {girl} trap, baby doll but you're ...you're so damn hot"

i dont know but for some reason i feel like freestyle walking. there is a skate park at el dorado park but i have no one to go with. maybe ill go freestyle walk in the empty pool with no transition in my backyard. yeah its gonna be fun especially b/c there is mud and water from the last rain collected at the bottom. yeah i think i will. anyone want to join? anyways i have a paper due on friday. i should really start thinking about it. first i should read the book. i think im going to power skim. anyways the half that i read has all the info i need anyways. i should start tomorrow. at least by tonight ill have a thesis. yeah thats the plan a thesis. tomorrow is the battle of the band. its four bands and its going to be at the nugget so i guess ill be there tomorrow. it kinda sucks i think they should have devoted one day instead of three hours. whatever. everytime i feel down my landlady always make me feel better and she doesnt even know it. when i got home she asked if i wanted to go to el cilantro to get lunch. i love that resturant so of course. this time i got the grande veggie buritto. oh man. its grande! its super heavy and it tastes so good. i always manage to bite the wrong end. i dont know if you can say there is a right or wrong end to eat a buritto but as i got towards the end i found the salsa my buritto was dripping. i fugure if i ate the other side first the salsa would have filtered its way to the bottom but no i bit the wrong end. throwing off the whole "system." she was even going to let me keep the $5 change but she took it back and saved it for the next time we eat out at the fish tail. my landlady treats me so well. like yesterday she was going to invite me to a family gathering. thats gotta be a good sign. when ever i think about moving out she does something inadvertantly to make me stay. look at this all this energy i put put to writing a entry i could have used it to power skim or to think of a thesis. blah...this book is called "a long bitter trail" seriously reading it is a long bitter trail. at least i got to the part that i needed.
i love my swatch watch but dammit is so fucking loud. my other watch is great it has the date and everything and its quiet but this one if my room is silent like when im about to go to sleep i can hear the tick tick tick of the fucking second hand. ah i dont know why this is killing me.
everyone and there cousins fucking uncle went to vegas for spring break. i guess people in long beach state just think alike. how sad.
i want to throw eggs at these girls that hang out in the usu on tuesdays and thursdays and the girl who has the annyoing voice. and this guy in my history class that talks to much. yeah bonzai!

"its too soon to say goodbye..."

spring break is over. that sucks. its basically 4 weeks to go then schools out. i have to do some major stuff. i have 2 essays and one presentation and then finals. that sucks. i have one essay due on friday and i have read half of the book which is good i guess. i have to read the other half tomorrow. enough of school just thinking about it stresses me out.
spring break was great. i got lots of rest. that was the best part. i watch a lot of tv. my favorite show by far was monster garage. mtv shows punk'd too many times in a day. i saw high school dismissed. i didnt get to throw eggs at anyone. that bummed me out. i hung out with jesse and stephanie and david and joel and jessica. ate lots of food. i got a coffee grinder and a bunch of coffee and chocolate covered espresso beans. got some cool shirts. a sushi in a box kit and a cool watch. my starting line cd book signed, i saw kelly osbourne and talked to drunk people. you might look at me and say your spring break sucked. but i had a good time.
back to long beach. i stayed home today trying to read my book but i have a really short attention span and i started to talk to people online or i went and looked for something to eat or i watched tv. im kinda mad b.c alias isnt on this week. it was the ten comandments but its tradition. i guess i can wait. i just had a funny thought. you know how the jennifer lopez video is all flashdance like? what if her favorite movie was the sound of music...it would be a totally different video. it would probably be better than the one out now....not really. i think that has to be the crappiest video out there right now. man i love the sound of music. its my moms favorite movie and she used to watch it a lot when i was a kid. i mean one of my sisters name was influenced by one of the songs.
anyways i think there is a caramel chocolate lifesavers soft cream saver with my name on it...

finally uploaded some pictures go and check them out its in the link called "pictures"

i got my stl cd slweeve signed by 3/4 people so its good. talked to some random assholes and developed my new catch phrase. you ahve to ask me to see it some time b/c its a fucking killer! yeah its thats great. i also did the robot too many times to count. i dont want to see me when im drunk. ill type the rest later.

man i feel fat. today my mom made sme good food and i ate a lot and o thought i was fill but i guess not b/c when i babysat, i ate three more slices of pizza. yes im a fat ass and you know what im ok with it. im just eating all i can b/c come sunday i wont be eating the same. i aslo had some ice cream. it was good. i hade a lot to eat today.
my neighbors are the greatest people in the world! i really mean it. i went to visit my nieghbors down the street and i was talking to them about how i drink coffee to stay awake and such and then from out of nowhere the bust out with all this coffee. from starbucks, millhouse, and hawaii, it was all good. then she tells me, "you can take as many as you want." what? and these were beans too and then she asks me if i have a grinder and i say no and then she gives me a new grinder. and then on top of that she gives me chocloate covered esspresso beans! how cool are they seriously i have coffee to last me a while. i love my neighbors. i also babysat and got some extra cash. it was fun as always. I LOVE MY NEIGHBORS!!! they are the greatest.
i love my sandals too. i could run in them therefore its a good sign. i skated around practiced walking on the board.

"i remember i dont want to remember..."

about the pictures ill put them up when i get back to long beach. i promise. anyways went to the mall yesterday. i got a gift certificate to pac sun. guess how many shirts i bought? on a normal day i would have probably bought 2 shirts for $40. but there was a magic sale and they had long sleeve shirts for $4.99. so naturally i bought 5 and one shirt that was $17.99. and no they are not plain long sleeve shirts. they are are cool shirts the plus was they were all my size. score! that was the most articles of clothing i bought in one time. it was insane. yes im insanely cheap but i bought the tshirt to make me seem not so cheap. and yes i know its approaching summer but right now it does not feel like summer and i will use the shirts for as long as i can.
its kinda cool being home b/c i get to eat all the food that i dont get to. im going to take advantage of this and eat all i can. b.c when i get back im not going to be eating the same. i also forgot how much sleep is the best thing. normally i usually get like 3-5 hours of sleep on weekdays. but this week has been awesome with an astounding 10-15 hours of sleep. i feel good. hopefully it wont rain.i want to go and track down all the people in dismissed. apparently a lot of people from there go on the show. yesterday i saw hogh school dismissed. it was kinda weird but funny. one of the guys is from thousand oaks high. i want to track him down and throw eggs at him. i guess b/c ive been wanting to throw eggs at people.

"i gonna be happy someday...'

im so proud i used the sewingn machine and cut down three xl shirts to youth medium. its cool. i guess this spring break i relly dont paln on doing anything special. just read sew and stuff. i have some time to think about what to do about my show. also sleep and eat. i brought my long board too.
i saw the reggie video. its great. not only is it peanut butter and jelly but brian sumner is in it. then i saw a commercal for some cool burger place in agura hills caled islands and rob machado is in it. i was like "hey rob machado" then the guy in the commercial goes "hey rob machado" that was pretty funny. i just sit and watch the tv all day. its horrible like there was a trading spaces and then fraternity life was on. its a horrible show but yet i watch. im a sad girl.

happy happy birthday happy birthday carl!!!


its nice being home. ill have some pictures up soon. ill link them as soon as i get them up.

"give a little time for the child within you dont be afraid to be young and free"

after the test in comm i could start to feel my brain melting. my brain is on spring break sipping a pina colada and munching on swedish fish. so i come home early today which was a plus, i go to my room and there is a package leaning on the door. its from charice. so i open it and there are the some bad ass monkey socks, a package or swedish fish, a spongebob card and a mix cd. i feel so loved. THANK YOU SO MUCH! really it was my high of the day. my low was talking a test. im going back to the nard tomorrow so if you in the area give me a call or im me. i wanted to go to the beach but apparently its going to rain. whatever that means. anyways i went to the station to further my training in the production studio. i worked on how to make promos and ray was cool and gave me a longwave cd which i love. also i met the general manager of the station. she is cool. she asked me if i went to the cmj show and b/c i did i scored cool points with the gm b/c she worked hard to get the show at the school and shes glad to hear that someone was excited for the show. woo. making promos was pretty easy. its scarry b/c its a global internet radio station and there is a web cam. so not only can you hear my crap ass voice but you can see me pick my nose. when i have a definate time and day ill make sure to share. i also get to make flyers and put them up in school b/c the radio show brocasts at the nugget and the usu. so everyone can hear my shit voice.
plans for spring break:
sleep
read "a long bitter trail"
watch tv
eat
go to the beach

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA!

have fun get wasted. basically do all the things that i didnt do on my bday b/c im a big lame.

"Shit Piss Fuck Cunt Cocksucker"

so apparently thats a song by blink 182 and its basically the words you cant say on the radio. also tit but you can say it like once or twice, dick in terms of the penis but you can say "oh that guy's a dick", fuck in any way shape or form, or pussy in the context of a vagina but you can say "oh that guy's a pussy" but i can say ass freeley thank goodness. i love that word. i think you might be able to say piss. i went into the station for my formal training. i have to do some other stuff and then ill have a show. i kinda didnt do too well on the little test but i dont take directions too well i have to actually see it. good thing i have to go to two sit ins. i get to watch and stuff so ill better understand the way things work. i kinda do but if i were to start my show tomorrow i wouldnt be too sure. i have to start with the songs in the library then i need things to talk about.
im kinda pissed b/c i guess i didnt study enough b.c i think i didnt do to well on my anthro test. i knew everything on the study guide but when the test came, i second guessed myself many times and i think it made me do bad.err...oh well i know i HAVE to do well on the final. i hate that we had a big study guide and she says whats on the sudy guide is on the test but then you take the test and the things you focused on more arent on the test.i hate that! right now im "studying" for communications but my attention is fleeting. seriously professors shouldnt test the week before or the week after spring break. yeah i dont have any desire to study at all. but i must! the person who made the study guide for comm was on crack. seriously everything is mixed up spelled wrong and does not go buy what the professor said was going to be on the test. oh well ill still study it or at least try to.
quote of the day " im going to go to the salon and get my hair did" serioulsy someone said that in conversation like it normal english.
i had a dream that my dog poochie came back to life. it was pretty funny. b/c it she was real pretty but i dont remember her being brown or fluffy but i called her poochie and i said poochie came back to life? its was like woah.

"But if you're scared You don't have to be Because the ending is so pretty"

you know how in tv shows and movies there is a scene like when the character is pleasantly suprised to find something on the table waiting for them find. you know? well today was pretty uneventful and so i go out to the kitchen to prepare my dinner and sitting on the table is a cupcake it had happy birthday ribbon and such. it kinda made me well up inside. i dont know why. it was from my landlady and it was just such a nice gesture it caught me off guard. she also gave me a sweatshirt. pretty much my family called and then i got some cool ims. charisse awesome as always thanks so much. and then to joel and loanly. its been pretty quiet. i basically made study sheets for the two test this week. also on tuesday i start my training. so ill have my show hopefully sometime after easter. i cant wait for this week to end i get to home on friday.

i remembered something funny from yesterday. in the break between the raveonettes and mooney suzuki, they people from the radio station came up and they were like yeah if you can name the title of the new dj krush cd you can get the signed vynil. the crowd was like what the fuck?! seriously they were asking the wrong crowd to name a dj krush album. nobody answered and they gave her a hard time for it. also the song of the day was fuck the police. we were singing it all day and then at the end of the show we wanted a encore but they said the police said no.

"In a young man's mind/it's a simple world/there's a little room for music/and the rest is girls"

holy shit! ok great day to start. history was ok. and then i get a good nap at the student union then i go home and rest. at around three i hang out with annisa at school. we were looking for people in our university 100 class but we failed b/c the school was empty. like really...empty. so wer walk around. so there is this crack that most of us all fight to walk through, well we faught with the mooney suzuki! yes it was great and fun. but i didnt ask them for a picture. dammit! oh well. then i see longwave and then we take a piture with them. they were really nice. then while light motorcade come on. they were good, not great but ok. then the raveonettes. they were awesome. i loved her skirt. they were so good. then the mooney suzuki. oh my goodness. what can i say. they were awesome. so good. so so good. everything i imagined it to be and better. so much goodness. it was just so great. i was singing and dancing and clapping. there was an energy. they have a personality like the hives. i cant say it enough it was great. they guys next to me were cool too. i got tons of pictures and ill have those up soon. and i got lots of free stuff and a shirt. i forgot to go to the bank so i only had $15 dollars. sucked b/c i wanted a longwave cd. oh well. i have to go to the bank tomorrow get some $$. im a poor kid.
it was cool b/c all the djs had backstage passes. but all failed to utilize the brnifits. like me i would have gone for the free food. good free food. special thanks to anissa for coming with me and dana for driving me home. good times.
it was funny b/c there were so many skinny kids. the turnout was good. not great but good.

have you ever had a song haunt you? you know like haunt you. like you hear it once then it just follows you? you dont know who the artist or band is but it just follows you?
so im watching scrubs a while back for the first time in forever and this song plays. i mean it was an alright song kinda sad. it kinda stuck in my head. then like a week later i watch conan and who what song do i hear? that same song that was on scrubs. this time i know what the song was and who did it. it was come around by rhett miller. then on tuesday im looking through the free bin in the radio station put out and what cd do i pull out? rhett miller.

heres an interesting site that i found...its pretty fun
fun times

"cause we find ourselves in the same old mess singing drunken lullabies"

i am very excited the mooney suzuki and the ravenettes are coming tomorrow. i got my ticket and everything. the crappy part is that im going to be going alone and taking the bus back home like at 10 i dont think the show will be over by then but yeah. its going to suck. especially the part about going home alone on the bus. i started the first part of my training at the station. basically reading the book and such. next week i start doing stuff. there are a lot of rules and such and then the fcc and then cjm.a lot to keep in mind. i have one listerner. he was cool and said he would listen to my show. i thought that was nice of him. i think elimidate is on...

"And what will you do when your suntan is fading and the summer's gone? "

sunday i went to church and got a ride back to the lbc with carl. (thanks again) it was hot there and it was a gross hot too. i dont like it. it was hot inside the house and especially in my room. i wasnt really planning on doing anything on monday but then anissa invited me to go to the beach. who would pass up an opportunity to go to the beach especially huntington beach? not me thats for sure. it was fun. thanks to wendy, veronica, annisa, and dana. i had fun and sorry if i misspelled any of your names.i didnt go in the ocean b/c i didnt have my suit. i mean i did but its for the pool not the ocean. so i used the bottom and wore a tank. i probably looked stupid but hey. we built a sand castle and planned to invade every other castle and then tax them but that didnt happen. it was a really nice day. every time i go to huntington i want to stay and live there. i love it there. so its huntington beach, costa mesa, san clemente or carlsbad are the places i want to live. it all depends on what happens.
today was cool. i got my ticket to the advanced warning tour. it was free its just that i have to get a ticket. then i got some free cds. and a longwave poster. i met the guy at the radio station and start my training on thursday. im excited. i have a bunch of tests and reading to do. err... and i got most of my registration holds lifted. im planning on taking some summer classes in ventura. mainly math and english. i hate thinking about registration i get anxiety attacks. i dont know why. i dont know what im scared of i hate thinking about it so ill stop there.
it was april fools day its probably the only day i dont say the words april fools. i think this year is probably going to be a crappy bday. i dont get pansit, or a carvel ice cream fashioned in the shape of a cake and im alone. i guess thats the crappy part. i hate being alone some times i dont know what ill do. maybe ill stick a candle in one of the cookies and milky way and then blow it out. i hate growing up.
waiting for spring break...

"Said I'm gonna buy a gun and start a war, If you can tell me something worth fighting for"

my parents came to pick me up at around 11ish. it was nice going home. i havent been home since january, so it was fun. i went grocery shopping with my mom. that was a fun. i got so much food i dont think ill go hungry for like two months. i also tried the cookies and milky way bars, they are the greatest. i dont have to go to the store for a while. out with charice to jesses house, lisa, paul, and linda eventually came over. it was fun watching tv and eating. then we went to the park and swung on the swings. i lost my hankerchief. it was fun. today i went to the mall. i got some new shoes and flip flops. they are the most comfortable flip flops i have ever worn. the cheap ones were comfortable too. thats really rare. they are etnies sandals at white sands. the $9.99 were nice but there were none in my size so my sister got me the nice ones. it was my bday gift. i got the rowley xlt from the vans store. usually shoes stick out and yell at me "buy me you idiot" but today it was like blah. nothing special. i really wanted the bam v2 or the sumner but i cold not find them.
the mall is a strange place. since when did rockabilly guys start working at gnc? it was the strangest sight. i saw the diary of tony hawk and and my sister bought oceans 11.
my brother got this pamphlet from the church about dating, its pretty funny. there are pictures of the male and female signs and they are "dating." the phamplet says: "respect you dadt as a person- not something for you satisfaction. no passionate petting no genital sext activites these belong in the marriage. date for mental, emotional and spirtual companitonship then in marriage your genital sharing will reflect these." umm...."genital sharing"? thats new. i never heard sex called that. it actually paints a very visual picture that is not nice. in the donts it says no pick ups, parking, pot, pills, petting, porn-in any form, prolonged privacy, and places that invite trouble. what i say to that it that i dont know trouble weve never met so im not worrying.

"Fall down. Make a mess. Break something occasionally. Know that your mistakes are your own unique way of getting to where you need to be. And remember that the story is never over." -conan o brien


so im listening to the mt high comercials on the radio, and the funny announcer guy was like "why, b/c were magic!" i was laughing. they use the word magic too thats great. seriously magic is the answers for all answers. i love that commercial. ahh they are funny. anyways. i love peanut butter jelly sandwiches. they are just so good and i forgot how good they are. everytime i make them i sing the peanut butter jelly song. as you can see i have nothing to do. tha reminds me im running out of jelly. my roommate is the best. she was cooking food and she gave me a slice of some of the best cheese, a fourth of an avacado and a tortilla. it was so good. i dont know what kind of cheese it is but it is damn good. i remember having some back in home econmics and i remember liking it then. it was a weird combination but a good one.

"im loosing my hair and my vision is shady..."

i hate studying. it takes up too much time.i wish i had the power of osmosis then i could rest on the book and then magically it soakes into my brain. my weekend was pretty much the same. i did laundry and then got a bunch of starbursts. they were three for a dollar so how could you pass an opportunity up like that. then on sunday we did comparative shopping at ralphs. i got a dollar off coupon for soylatte so that means its only going to be 99 cents! what a deal. the week so far is just eh. the weather is soo soo nice. sunny nice breeze and warm. i love it. so nice. im thinking about going down to the lagoon and feed the swans and ducks some stale crackers.
its kindacool b/c we have a three day weekend for cesar chavez day but like half of the people that go to long beach have no idea who he is. is it even a holiday in oxnard? i have to look in to that.