Thursday, September 04, 2003

it was interesting. in the morning i went to the fabric store with a classmate. he was nice enough to give me a ride. i got interfacing. i'm very jealous of his fabric b/c he found raiders fabric in the bargain bin. that's so rad. i didn't get my stuff b/c i need money first. i went back home then tok a nice nap and then went back to poli sci. it's killer. i have a paper due on the 25th of september. sucks.. i have to get started on that thing too. bah! i just remembered that my intro to apparel production prof reminds me of phoebe from friends.

Wednesday, September 03, 2003

remember in rugrats when chuckie lost melville his pet sow bug? its like that.
it hurts so much. its just a goldfish. it was somthing more. the fact that i kept him alive for so long. i got attached.

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

RIP Jordan Earl Esquire III 6:13pm
April 27, 2003-September 2, 2003.

that is so hard to say but it's true. i changed his water and then when i get back from classhes upside down swimming. he was breathing and wiggling. so i call my dad. then i started crying. it's a goldfish and they can't give you teh affection like a dog but jordan was mine. he outlived his friends from the carnival. he lived through a stressful car ride back to oxnard.

for a while it was just me and jordan. he watched movies with me, and follow my finger. he told me when he was hungry. he was happpy almost all of the time. he was happiest when i gave him a bigger home and at feeding time. if i sat and watched him he would swim right in front of me. i miss him. he was a great goldfish.i don't know if any goldfish can love up to jordan.

i was not ready for him to go. i blam it all on myself because i changed his water. i was supposed to change the filter on the britta but i didn't. it was all my fault.

i haven't flushed hom down yet. i want to give him a proper burial, but i'm not in oxnard but long beach is his real home. i miss him so much. it's so lonely in my room and with jordan it seemed as if i wasn't. evertytime i look at his bowl empty it make me cry. i so used to him swimming around and making splashes. i had a plan for me and jordan to go on pet star and meet mario lopez. jordan was going to jump through a hoop and into another bowl. but now we can't. when i turn on winapm the song heaven by moonpools and caterpillars played.

i'm going to go now and flush him down the toilet because jordan belongs in the water. i loved him so much.

i hurt.
my heart almost dropped i saw jordan staring at me through the bowl and it looked like he stopped breathing. i'm still very shaken. so i poked him with an insharpened pencil. he's swimming now.

Monday, September 01, 2003

school starts tomorrow.

i moved in today.

watched about 7 hours of saved by the bell straight.

good times indeed.