And you won't fail with me around

recently i've been into painting my nails. it really calms me down. I think i've changed colors three times in the past two weeks. i've settled on a dark blue, for now.

what is amazing is that for about 19 - 20 years i was a nail biter. it is pretty intense how low i can bite them. i tried to grow them out only to bite them. the only thing to stop me was nail polish. i don't know why i bite my nails. i've always thought it was gross and not lady like. but nobody stopped me so i continued to bite away. i've grown up and i haven't bitten my nails for 4 years. i'm pretty proud of myself. credit should be given when credit is due. thanks shane for helping break the horrid habit.

to other things great. did you know that i love karl lagerfeld?



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Flows for Hos with low self esteem

I had a surge of creativity.

[1/1/2002 9:58:05 PM | Eizelle G]

hey this has been a long time coming. i havent written in this thing for a long time and as one of my new years resolutions, i will try to write in it as much as possible.
This year has had its ups and downs for me. the beginning was slow but near the end it picked up the pace. where to begin? in the begining of the year it was the same as is every year. i sit on my fat ass and watch tv all night long while feelings of envy pulse through me hoping one year i will be able to join dick clark one day in times square. one year i hope to be somewhere and be something and get to do things that i never dreamed of but alas im still at home dreaming of that day. its the same every year and it is starting to get boring. im always inside.
for 17 years ive stayed inside my house. it sucks so much i guess thats why i want to get out and do something.
then college and everything came up so fast. i thought i knew what i wanted to do but as the year progressed i dont know any more.im really confused and at times i just want to leave. i dont want to think about about it anymore but it will always be there. if i dont get in to any college i dont think i will go at all or i will leave for austraila and start over my short life over where nobody will know me. maybe ill be better off there. i dont know anymore what i want to do. one day i want to be an interior designer, the next day i want to be a film major, the next day i want to be a landscape architect. i thought i knew what i wanted to do but now im lost. im stuck and it is somewhere i dont want to be. i hurts me to tell my grandmother that i WILL be going to college but reality i dont really know. i just want to graduate take a long nap and wake up somewhere i want to be. i dont want to do it all myself. i dont want to let people down. im surrounded by people who succeed everyday sometimes i feel lost and detached because that is not something i want to do. im going crazy thinking about this so ill move on
i got asked to do a movie called pearl harbor.


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I feel that I've lost that little piece of me that was a dreamer. I got the degree, I got up and did something and for that I am very proud of myself. I wouldn't say that I am in a place where I feel comfortable but it is getting there. I miss California, but I love the surprises that Portland has to offer. I still have hopes and dreams. I haven't lost the 17 year old me completely.

okay so i was asked to do pearl harbor!!! the lady said it was going to be big but i didnt show up. what the fuck. 17 year old me is a fucking moron!!! i can't believe that I turned down pearl harbor. My life would have changed.




Happy inauguration day!

it feels like 13

Portland Calling

I'm heeeerrrrreeee! burr it's cold. I guess it is supposed to snow tomorrow and Sunday. I'm kinda excited to think that I am going to actually see snow where I live. Too bad my wardrobe does not match my environment. I guess it is something to strive for.

Add it to the list I guess.

I got a sweet pair of rain boots from the mister and I love them. They are perfect. By Sperry Topsider



Boots

Then I ran into these and i want them!



They're like Uggs but rain boots and actually cute. Moovculture

Then this dress by Suzabelle:



Suzabelle

i've become restless for a new wardrobe

what has two thumbs and has a books signed by Mary Kate and Ashley?

MEEEE!!!!!!





I promise they are in the picture. Went to a book signing and just being in their presence was awesome all need.

But lights press The soft skin To rough hands.

I am kinda in love with Karl Lagerfeld. He moved to Vermont, so fashion forward.

Busy Work

Food for thought. Taken from Banksy’s Village Petstore and Charcoal Grill








PS busy work every wednesday at detroit bar, costa mesa, ca

These hands Like strangers in the wind

It's hard to try to fit everything you want to get out of southern california in a little less than two months. Oktoberfest, halloween haunt, art shows, seeing everyone before we leave, Oxnard folks this includes you! It's all moving so fast I can't believe it. It's now or never and I chose now. I have a ton of shit to get rid of I have some money to save, I'm excited and scared all at the same time. I'm gonna miss everything.

I am leaving for Portland in December.

PS Despite the economic fall, teenagers are still spending recklessly, and I am here to guide them. I love it!

California's Gold

I met Huell Howser!

bears will tear us apart again

I love Karl Lagerfeld. He is fashion. Rememeber the fan he would tote around? It was the best. This picture makes me happy. It is everything I would imagine Karl Lagerfeld to be in bear form. Oh Karl one day we will cross paths.








W magazine.

If I Could Reach Higher

One of my coworkers said, "I think beer pong should be an Olympic sport."

Amen, here is the proof.



We played team Malaysia.

We fought hard for enebriated Americans. We just were not on our game, we fought the good fight, we drank the bad beer. Malaysia played hard, I think they drank less than we did but it was a great game.

Makes you sick, makes you ill, makes you cheat, slipping change from the till




Saw Ok Go. Fun times. UCLA kids are kinda square.

Ok Go reminds me oh high school and Fuse. my blog comes full circle and i feel more complete.

Still my favorite ok go video.

This is our decision, to live fast and die young. We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.

Dear California , more specific, Southern California,

I love you dearly but I think we need a break. Please do not be mad at me, but you have become too expensive and too needy. You are cramping my style just a little bit and draining my expenses.

Please don't be mad, I will return again, I promise, till then please keep a warm place in your heart, and I will do the same.

Love, Eizelle, Oxnard, CA

Go See Cal




it amazes me. why aren't more car sales men like cal? it reminds me of the good old days of cartoons, gilligans island and sneaking fruit snacks/candy from my grandparents. oh have i grown up.

RIP Hal Fishman

Fashionable Ladies

i feel very worn out. I hate writing papers because I hvae such a short attention span. Like right now for example. I'm supposed to be writing about crinoline,but no. I'd rather write here/take pictures of myself/arrange itunes. BOOOO! I hate school. can't wait till i finish. I have two great interships. one i did not go to because I was occupied with my paper.
i guess it is back to fashion history.

take a look at me noooowwww

Today's Outlook:

New opportunities await.

Busy, Busy ,busy. I do have time to catch my breath which is awesome. I have my weekends on days nobody else does.
Tentative schedule till August:

Seungday! - BlackMarket
Monday - Cardboard Robot internship!
Tuesday - class till about 12pm on certain days - Baumvision internship!
Wednesday - Cardboard Robot!
Thursday - class till 12pm - Baumvision!
Friday - BlackMarket
Saturday - BlackMarket/party/get drink on/passout day.


I'm actually pretty excitied. I have a good feeling about everything and i hope it all works out for the best. In the meantime, sugarfree redbulls, finding time to go to the beach, fourth of july, networking. i've learned that it is who you know that will get you the job. kinda shitty to find out that after doing so well in school that most places don't really look at grades. oh well. sooo excited.

Eizelle Went to College!

CSULB and I are almost Dunzo!

here are the pictures





more to come!

so i wikipedia-ed myself and this is what i found.

http://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eizelle

very interesting....

new haircut. kinda short. will make it work.

today I start hopefully a weekly feature. i call it tee shirt of the week. this week i feature a shirt from a brand called cerbae.




why you ask? it's amazing. that's all i can say about it.

www.cerbae.com

finally. Geeze!

Tomorrow is finally Thursday! Finally going home. Should be a good time. I have a cute little dress, the cutest shoes and a little necklace with a hint of green. Might go home on Friday night, still thinking about it. i want school to end.

things to do:
bring back dad's camera
make graduation announcements because i'm fucking cheap
take graduation pictures with dad's camera because again, i'm fucking cheap
remember to bring home the office season 2



www.rickcortes.net
www.myspace.com/artistrickcortes

AMAZING is all I can say about the man the myth the legend, Rick Cortes

Time to Get Low and do the Tootsie Roll

vegas was super. so many pretty clothes. my feet haven't been the same since then. i love working at black market. seungday!school is coming along. graduation is seirously around the corner and i'm excited. working at the bakery is fun, the rusle can be a drag but whateve. it's still the morning and i have a lot to do. I have to wash myself and my clothes. i think i can last two more days so i'm not too worried about the clothes. myself on the other hand, i have to shower.

i have to eventually get to writing my paper so i guess u i will leave you with that.