I'm short of breath and over dressed

today was just eh. sat around school and stuff. i really hate my math class. we had a take home quiz and i did it all yesterday. i go go turn it in and then i realize that i have my notes and not the quiz. so i ask the TA's if i can have time to do it. so i try and people are asking for my help and such i finished it but then i get home and i look and i find the quiz. i was so pissed. grr...there was a girl in that class that was wearing a ladytron shirt and i was like "hey thats a cool shirt" and she like yeah thanks and then i say somethign about the postal service playing today and like she was like yeah i know! so that was cool now we talk. its cool. making friends is fun. i should try to at least say hi to a new person everyday till the end of the school year. its going to be hard but i think im going to try....
i need my wisdom teeth out. they are tearing up the back of my cheek. i chew my food and im chewing part of my cheek at the same time. its insane. i need to tell my mom i need them out NOW! and i need juice im rationing now. h20 till the end i guess.

maybe I'm the still light behind your eyes

yesterday i did laundry at the dorms with annisa. good times claiming machines and driers. seriously it beats going to circle center. it was thanksgiving at the dining hall and i got weirded out by some guys there. oh well...then itook the bus at night which is very scary. i do no reccommend it at all at least not alone and with bag of clothes.
today was stay at home and do stuff. i didnt do much i realized that i have some kind of addiction to caffeine. i dont think its good to be drinking coffee and eating chocolate covered espresso beans at the same time. it got rid of my headache. that was a good thing i guess. im running out of food. all i have left is packaged food and shrimp. im trying to come up with ways to change up the menu but i have no ideas. it sucks not having food. yeah i could just go to the store but i have no money. so i have to come up with different ways to cook rice and waffles. all hell will break loose when i run out of coffee. fuck that reminds me, i need to buy frozen juice.

man ok i think my fish is a lot more active when im not here. i thought he was never going to eat but no when i came back all his food was gone and i fed him again and look when i turn my back he grabs food. geeze.

fuck you jordan

sorry so hostile but jordan, my fish is pissing me off. hes not eating and hes just hiding behind the plant. grr pissing me off i dont want him to die. i didtn do much yesterday. it was raining

remember all the things we kept inside and we dont know why

i feel like a bad parent. today i have classes from 8am to 445 so i dont usually get home till 530ish so im gone the whole day, i totally forgot to feed my fish. went i go home i fed him and he was attacking the food. im felt bad the whole day. i was supposed to give a presentation but no josh decided to stop and there are like six more people so i guess ill go next week then. anyways there were some note worthy ones. like this one girl did her on flirting and she was trying out some tips and sure enough she has a date. this other guy did his on music. it was great b.c he said the lyrics to so fresh and so clean and he said something about hygene and how its important so that kinda made me giggle. anyways then i met annisa for lunch at the dining hall. i had a gardenburger and some pasta and a coffee. stupid smoothie machine was broken. anyways, then annisa went to class so i checked out this communication navigation thing and kroq was there and i got a keychain. good stuff the guys working the booth were super cute too.

and i shook the honey glaze from my head

i love my mom. she called me to remind me that its free scoop day at 31 flavors. thats great. she wants me to go home this weekend and babysit for the family i babysit for.its an overnight thing and they requested me. the thing is that i dont have a way home. boo. so i dont know. im hopefully its weird b/c i talk to everyone else and i dont feel homesick but when i talk to my mom i feel like im missing something...i have jordan and he keeps me company when it gets lonely. he looks at me funny and its cool b/c hes actually going up for fish food instead of me poking it to make it float down. hes so cool. im suprised hes lived this long. tomorrow i give my informational speech and its going to be may. 23 more days to go. who ha! i have academic advising on friday. thats cutting into my nap time. oh well. after my presentation the next big thing is finals. my housemate moved out. it was kinda shitty too b/c she left without two weeks notice and she wanted her deposit back. i dont think your entitled to it if you dont give at leat 2 weeks notice. but no she got it back much to the dismay of my landlady. as soon as she got it posted up we had a girl come to look at the room and some boy call. so hopefully ill get some cool house mates. then i can make a psudo real world. this is the story...
yeah it was kinda exciting i really want to get new house mates. i have to register soon and i havent really thought about the classes i i want. ill think about that later. now i think about sleep and what im going to eat for lunch tomorrow..oh and that presentation.

Make a liar out of me and work your magic

its sad im singing to my fish. i want him to live. i dont think singing to him will help.
fisherspooner is awesome. i heard his song a while ago and i thought it was cool then but then i saw him on jimmy kimmel oi so fun.he had dancers and he danced with them. i never thought i could like a band that does that but hey it was good. theres a first for everything.if it wasnt so late i would have gotten up and danced. so yeah check out the song emerge.
anyways school is school i have to do a two to three page outline on interpersonal relationships and the internet: intiating new relationships and how it helps keep touch with families and friends and how it can improve these relationships. yeah kinda boring but i also get to present this to my class. im not too excited about that. oh well. in comm there was some preformance. it was better than what i was expecting. you know those plays in school that have 30 year olds acting as teenagers in fictional situations that teach us a lesson but they always end up making you want to do the total opposite of what they tell you not to do ? this was not like it. it was pretty good and ive seen my share of preformance groups.
i dont know where ben a jerrys was so no free scoop for me but tomorrow is free scoop day at 31 flavors and i live right down the street from them. who ha! free ice cream for eizelle.

tilt your head back as we hit the wall

i was just finishing up my pears and cheese platter...ok well friday i didnt have class so naturally i didnt get up till like 2. i was a good sleep. then annisa asks me to fill in a spot on the softball team she plays for i figure hey why not so i did. the thing was that i was not 100%. i was kinda sick and medicated but i still played. it was fun. we lost but it was fun none the less. after that we (annisa, dana, wendy and two other guys that i cant seem to rememebr the names...sorry) went to a&w. i never knew a place like that existed. this one was weird b/c it was an a&w kfc split. so along with the "authentic 50's dinner" motif there was kfc motif. it was funny. if you order root beer at a&w you get like a beer glass. its pretty cool. well there were some resting on top of a trash can near the exit so as we were walking out i look behind the counter, nobody was watching and i just grab one and walk out. it was that easy. annisa got one too but her shoes were sacraficed. then wer head to lazer something were we play lazer tag. it was great. there were a bunch of high school kids that look like they just got out of sadies b/c each couple was wearing something that was matching. it was actually quite sickening. and afi was playing so the girls were dancing around and stuff. but i guessed it was afi and i got a free game. i also got free games on the ms packman/galaxia (?) split. after that we went back to the dorms and i slept there. it was cool. i ate breakfast at the dining hall and then we headed to kaleidoscope. i got a cool key chain that resembles the pyramid and they won goldfish. anissa won two and she gave me one he has two friends, ted and ian (RIP). so we all had one except for nick (i think thats his name). anyways the name for my fish as follows: jordan b/c i was going to name him jerome but he started to freak out and then i look up and i see a crew of kids wearing nfg shirts so i say jordan and he stops so i said jordan. then earl b/c of the one and only robert earl wells and esquire iii b/c thats a cool title. hes in a little terrium right now. but i know he wont live long so when he goes im getting a betta. then we go to a dorm bbq. it was fun i guess. we got food what can you say. then we head back to the dorms and then like at 945 we head to the movies. we saw the real cancun. the funny part was when the movie was over and we were heading out we see seriously an old man and old lady sitting in the back of the theater. i think grandpa was asleep and grandma was in shock. the movie was like girls gone wild but real world. it was funny. then they drop me off. good times.
sunday was essay day. this week in speech. i have to write a speech about interpersonal relationships and the internet. im focusing on how it effects friends and family and how you make new friends. it should be fun.
today was alright. a storybook ending played today. they were good. my housemate is moving out. im going to be alone. as long as i have jordan...

im in love

his name is jordan

jordan earl esquire iii

hes sitting on my desk right now looking at me

yeah hes a goldfish

ill tell you the rest later...right now its time to write an essay.

look at the summer day the sun is rising once again...


awww...i just saw the series finale of sabrina the teenage witch. it was sweet. she was going to marry aaron but hes soul star didnt fit with hers and she wasnt feeling it so she didnt marry him. and then harvey was outside and he had his soul star and it fit with sabrinas and they rode off together. it was sweet.
my day was cool. i went to the radio station and uploaded my assigned cds. some were cool. like i had the new cave in, and the new vaux cd. i so wanted a copy. the music libraby is very extensive very cool. it was funny b/c right outside the station was so gaming tour like you get to play all the new games and stuff. oh man the crowd was hilarious b/c its the people i see in the arcade. i heard a funny story too. during club week the anime club had a ddr set up and karaoke and they were all gung ho about it too. the was she told the stroy was funny i guess. anyways i got to know the station people more and they are all awesome. ray calls me E.I thats funny b/c i think one other person called me that. so i cant wait to start.
in my anthro class some guy was wearing a trogdor shirt. i was like "thats an awesome shirt!"
fuck im getting sick....

lets keep the moon awake

im pissed at math but whats new? anyways my paper is postponed to monday b.c professor lawler isnt going be there on friday. that put the biggest smile on my face. not only that, but literally half of the class showed up so half of the class is going to show up and nobody will be there. hahahaha. its an 8am class. so its going to be hilarious. no stress till sunday. so friday i think im going down to the station. like at 10ish. tomorrow i get to see the station music library and upload 10 cds. fun times. my sister is going into radio up in norcal.
i hate ants. they are infesting the kitchen. i cleaned it today but they still came back. little fuckers. i didnt eat big today. i had a fish buritto for lunch which was at 2pm so come dinner i was not hungry. i just had some potatoes. i wanted another grande veggie buritto. i dont feel to good today but i can live with it.
math was hilarious. not only is my professon crazy, there was scene in class today that was something from jenny jones. appaerntly she felt that she deserved two points and that the TAs cheated her of it. she got a 29/100 on the test but this is a credit/no credit class and two points could mean a lot. i dont know was funny b.c it was really nothing and the TAs were willing to give her the points but no she made a scene. it was great.

"just like a dream you crept into my head"

HAPPY EARTH DAY!

dammit i hate writing essays all i have is removal of the Native Americans was necessary for the expansion of the United States
thats my thesis. so now i have to some up with other stuff to write. now thats the part i dont like. err. have to do this.
i love my landlady more and more everyday. today the bathroom was painted. i thought the paint was dry and so i take a shower and it starts to crack and peel and stuff. so i tell her expecting that i would have to repaint the bathroom. she tells me not to worry. and that its ok. geeze if this was my mom, she would be so pissed at me and make me repaint the shower but no she was like dont worry. she also told me that she was going to invite us to go to vegas. it was a two night trip for only $20. i probably would go if it was saturday but i have school and such. she is awesome. thats all i have to say.
im not a big fan of tuesday b.c i dont really talk to anyone. it was a pretty lonely day. oh yeah no battle of the bands today i think.
i had another alias dream thats number two. i guess b/c it wasnt on sunday.

I scored a 43% on the "HoW FiliPiNo ArE yOU?" Quizie! What about you?

damn i suck. what then hell im more filipino than rocks in the mother land. geeze.

"you're a bad-hearted boy {girl} trap, baby doll but you're ...you're so damn hot"

i dont know but for some reason i feel like freestyle walking. there is a skate park at el dorado park but i have no one to go with. maybe ill go freestyle walk in the empty pool with no transition in my backyard. yeah its gonna be fun especially b/c there is mud and water from the last rain collected at the bottom. yeah i think i will. anyone want to join? anyways i have a paper due on friday. i should really start thinking about it. first i should read the book. i think im going to power skim. anyways the half that i read has all the info i need anyways. i should start tomorrow. at least by tonight ill have a thesis. yeah thats the plan a thesis. tomorrow is the battle of the band. its four bands and its going to be at the nugget so i guess ill be there tomorrow. it kinda sucks i think they should have devoted one day instead of three hours. whatever. everytime i feel down my landlady always make me feel better and she doesnt even know it. when i got home she asked if i wanted to go to el cilantro to get lunch. i love that resturant so of course. this time i got the grande veggie buritto. oh man. its grande! its super heavy and it tastes so good. i always manage to bite the wrong end. i dont know if you can say there is a right or wrong end to eat a buritto but as i got towards the end i found the salsa my buritto was dripping. i fugure if i ate the other side first the salsa would have filtered its way to the bottom but no i bit the wrong end. throwing off the whole "system." she was even going to let me keep the $5 change but she took it back and saved it for the next time we eat out at the fish tail. my landlady treats me so well. like yesterday she was going to invite me to a family gathering. thats gotta be a good sign. when ever i think about moving out she does something inadvertantly to make me stay. look at this all this energy i put put to writing a entry i could have used it to power skim or to think of a thesis. blah...this book is called "a long bitter trail" seriously reading it is a long bitter trail. at least i got to the part that i needed.
i love my swatch watch but dammit is so fucking loud. my other watch is great it has the date and everything and its quiet but this one if my room is silent like when im about to go to sleep i can hear the tick tick tick of the fucking second hand. ah i dont know why this is killing me.
everyone and there cousins fucking uncle went to vegas for spring break. i guess people in long beach state just think alike. how sad.
i want to throw eggs at these girls that hang out in the usu on tuesdays and thursdays and the girl who has the annyoing voice. and this guy in my history class that talks to much. yeah bonzai!

"its too soon to say goodbye..."

spring break is over. that sucks. its basically 4 weeks to go then schools out. i have to do some major stuff. i have 2 essays and one presentation and then finals. that sucks. i have one essay due on friday and i have read half of the book which is good i guess. i have to read the other half tomorrow. enough of school just thinking about it stresses me out.
spring break was great. i got lots of rest. that was the best part. i watch a lot of tv. my favorite show by far was monster garage. mtv shows punk'd too many times in a day. i saw high school dismissed. i didnt get to throw eggs at anyone. that bummed me out. i hung out with jesse and stephanie and david and joel and jessica. ate lots of food. i got a coffee grinder and a bunch of coffee and chocolate covered espresso beans. got some cool shirts. a sushi in a box kit and a cool watch. my starting line cd book signed, i saw kelly osbourne and talked to drunk people. you might look at me and say your spring break sucked. but i had a good time.
back to long beach. i stayed home today trying to read my book but i have a really short attention span and i started to talk to people online or i went and looked for something to eat or i watched tv. im kinda mad b.c alias isnt on this week. it was the ten comandments but its tradition. i guess i can wait. i just had a funny thought. you know how the jennifer lopez video is all flashdance like? what if her favorite movie was the sound of music...it would be a totally different video. it would probably be better than the one out now....not really. i think that has to be the crappiest video out there right now. man i love the sound of music. its my moms favorite movie and she used to watch it a lot when i was a kid. i mean one of my sisters name was influenced by one of the songs.
anyways i think there is a caramel chocolate lifesavers soft cream saver with my name on it...

finally uploaded some pictures go and check them out its in the link called "pictures"

i got my stl cd slweeve signed by 3/4 people so its good. talked to some random assholes and developed my new catch phrase. you ahve to ask me to see it some time b/c its a fucking killer! yeah its thats great. i also did the robot too many times to count. i dont want to see me when im drunk. ill type the rest later.

man i feel fat. today my mom made sme good food and i ate a lot and o thought i was fill but i guess not b/c when i babysat, i ate three more slices of pizza. yes im a fat ass and you know what im ok with it. im just eating all i can b/c come sunday i wont be eating the same. i aslo had some ice cream. it was good. i hade a lot to eat today.
my neighbors are the greatest people in the world! i really mean it. i went to visit my nieghbors down the street and i was talking to them about how i drink coffee to stay awake and such and then from out of nowhere the bust out with all this coffee. from starbucks, millhouse, and hawaii, it was all good. then she tells me, "you can take as many as you want." what? and these were beans too and then she asks me if i have a grinder and i say no and then she gives me a new grinder. and then on top of that she gives me chocloate covered esspresso beans! how cool are they seriously i have coffee to last me a while. i love my neighbors. i also babysat and got some extra cash. it was fun as always. I LOVE MY NEIGHBORS!!! they are the greatest.
i love my sandals too. i could run in them therefore its a good sign. i skated around practiced walking on the board.

"i remember i dont want to remember..."

about the pictures ill put them up when i get back to long beach. i promise. anyways went to the mall yesterday. i got a gift certificate to pac sun. guess how many shirts i bought? on a normal day i would have probably bought 2 shirts for $40. but there was a magic sale and they had long sleeve shirts for $4.99. so naturally i bought 5 and one shirt that was $17.99. and no they are not plain long sleeve shirts. they are are cool shirts the plus was they were all my size. score! that was the most articles of clothing i bought in one time. it was insane. yes im insanely cheap but i bought the tshirt to make me seem not so cheap. and yes i know its approaching summer but right now it does not feel like summer and i will use the shirts for as long as i can.
its kinda cool being home b/c i get to eat all the food that i dont get to. im going to take advantage of this and eat all i can. b.c when i get back im not going to be eating the same. i also forgot how much sleep is the best thing. normally i usually get like 3-5 hours of sleep on weekdays. but this week has been awesome with an astounding 10-15 hours of sleep. i feel good. hopefully it wont rain.i want to go and track down all the people in dismissed. apparently a lot of people from there go on the show. yesterday i saw hogh school dismissed. it was kinda weird but funny. one of the guys is from thousand oaks high. i want to track him down and throw eggs at him. i guess b/c ive been wanting to throw eggs at people.

"i gonna be happy someday...'

im so proud i used the sewingn machine and cut down three xl shirts to youth medium. its cool. i guess this spring break i relly dont paln on doing anything special. just read sew and stuff. i have some time to think about what to do about my show. also sleep and eat. i brought my long board too.
i saw the reggie video. its great. not only is it peanut butter and jelly but brian sumner is in it. then i saw a commercal for some cool burger place in agura hills caled islands and rob machado is in it. i was like "hey rob machado" then the guy in the commercial goes "hey rob machado" that was pretty funny. i just sit and watch the tv all day. its horrible like there was a trading spaces and then fraternity life was on. its a horrible show but yet i watch. im a sad girl.

happy happy birthday happy birthday carl!!!


its nice being home. ill have some pictures up soon. ill link them as soon as i get them up.

"give a little time for the child within you dont be afraid to be young and free"

after the test in comm i could start to feel my brain melting. my brain is on spring break sipping a pina colada and munching on swedish fish. so i come home early today which was a plus, i go to my room and there is a package leaning on the door. its from charice. so i open it and there are the some bad ass monkey socks, a package or swedish fish, a spongebob card and a mix cd. i feel so loved. THANK YOU SO MUCH! really it was my high of the day. my low was talking a test. im going back to the nard tomorrow so if you in the area give me a call or im me. i wanted to go to the beach but apparently its going to rain. whatever that means. anyways i went to the station to further my training in the production studio. i worked on how to make promos and ray was cool and gave me a longwave cd which i love. also i met the general manager of the station. she is cool. she asked me if i went to the cmj show and b/c i did i scored cool points with the gm b/c she worked hard to get the show at the school and shes glad to hear that someone was excited for the show. woo. making promos was pretty easy. its scarry b/c its a global internet radio station and there is a web cam. so not only can you hear my crap ass voice but you can see me pick my nose. when i have a definate time and day ill make sure to share. i also get to make flyers and put them up in school b/c the radio show brocasts at the nugget and the usu. so everyone can hear my shit voice.
plans for spring break:
sleep
read "a long bitter trail"
watch tv
eat
go to the beach

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA!

have fun get wasted. basically do all the things that i didnt do on my bday b/c im a big lame.

"Shit Piss Fuck Cunt Cocksucker"

so apparently thats a song by blink 182 and its basically the words you cant say on the radio. also tit but you can say it like once or twice, dick in terms of the penis but you can say "oh that guy's a dick", fuck in any way shape or form, or pussy in the context of a vagina but you can say "oh that guy's a pussy" but i can say ass freeley thank goodness. i love that word. i think you might be able to say piss. i went into the station for my formal training. i have to do some other stuff and then ill have a show. i kinda didnt do too well on the little test but i dont take directions too well i have to actually see it. good thing i have to go to two sit ins. i get to watch and stuff so ill better understand the way things work. i kinda do but if i were to start my show tomorrow i wouldnt be too sure. i have to start with the songs in the library then i need things to talk about.
im kinda pissed b/c i guess i didnt study enough b.c i think i didnt do to well on my anthro test. i knew everything on the study guide but when the test came, i second guessed myself many times and i think it made me do bad.err...oh well i know i HAVE to do well on the final. i hate that we had a big study guide and she says whats on the sudy guide is on the test but then you take the test and the things you focused on more arent on the test.i hate that! right now im "studying" for communications but my attention is fleeting. seriously professors shouldnt test the week before or the week after spring break. yeah i dont have any desire to study at all. but i must! the person who made the study guide for comm was on crack. seriously everything is mixed up spelled wrong and does not go buy what the professor said was going to be on the test. oh well ill still study it or at least try to.
quote of the day " im going to go to the salon and get my hair did" serioulsy someone said that in conversation like it normal english.
i had a dream that my dog poochie came back to life. it was pretty funny. b/c it she was real pretty but i dont remember her being brown or fluffy but i called her poochie and i said poochie came back to life? its was like woah.

"But if you're scared You don't have to be Because the ending is so pretty"

you know how in tv shows and movies there is a scene like when the character is pleasantly suprised to find something on the table waiting for them find. you know? well today was pretty uneventful and so i go out to the kitchen to prepare my dinner and sitting on the table is a cupcake it had happy birthday ribbon and such. it kinda made me well up inside. i dont know why. it was from my landlady and it was just such a nice gesture it caught me off guard. she also gave me a sweatshirt. pretty much my family called and then i got some cool ims. charisse awesome as always thanks so much. and then to joel and loanly. its been pretty quiet. i basically made study sheets for the two test this week. also on tuesday i start my training. so ill have my show hopefully sometime after easter. i cant wait for this week to end i get to home on friday.